January 1, 2012
The Dirty “R” Word
2011 was quite a year. I’m actually glad it is over. It’s difficult for me to describe all of the things I experienced because so much of 2011 was influenced by 2010. And 2010 was mostly carryover from 2009 when my life changed so dramatically and I don’t think I ever really caught my breath.
I have had a rough road since October ’09. I stopped working for BlogHer and weeks later gave birth to my little Owen. Our finances took a nosedive and I was forced back to work in the “real world” which was very emotional. I had a difficult time leaving my baby to work only part-time.
The job at Joerns sucked, but I did what needed to be done to support my family. My dissatisfaction with that horrid company is what led me to go back to school in January 2011. I was determined to do better for myself. That determination — my ambition — is what helped me get the job I have now at Sentry. I knew that I deserved better.
Here I am a year later, beginning my final semester in two weeks, with graduation just around the corner. I am darn proud of myself for managing to go to school, work full time and raise two wonderful boys with the help of my husband. (If that’s not an amazing accomplishment…what is?)
This New Year’s Day I made a resolution not to make any resolutions. I can’t help but laugh. Insert FAIL here. Now that THAT is out of the way…
The thing is, I could sit here and write down all the things I need or want to change in the New Year but I have realized that resolutions have expectations that weigh me down. Resolutions make me feel like I “have to” do something and do it perfectly lest the New Year would be jinxed. Resolution. Ugh. Makes me shudder just reading it.
Instead, I have decided to live life one day at a time with no great expectations or big dreams of perfection. I would rather be present in my life, living day by day, embracing the good and the not so good, and learning from my experiences.
I think this New Year is already off on the right foot.
Happy New Year, Everyone!
