April 17, 2011
Fresh Start
I don’t know why I can’t let go of this blog. I haven’t written a post in weeks. Months. There are moments when I just want to pull the plug and ditch this place. Then I think of all the things I miss about blogging and want to try again.
Truth be told I’m not sure where I stand on this issue. Emotionally, I need this space. But I’ve got a lot of anger that has built up over the last 18 months and I can’t seem to let go of that either.
What anger you ask? I’d love to blog it, but I don’t want to give the offenders (a few bloggers and one BIG blogging organization) the satisfaction of knowing they hurt me. It’s a story I’ll probably only write in a journal and will most likely tuck it away never to be read. I’m okay with that.
There is so much going on in my life and I’ve wanted to take the time to blog everything from my recent job change (I’m finally where I’m supposed to be), to my finishing school and ultimately starting my MBA (holy crap, I can’t believe I’m going to do this), and of course life with an amazing husband and those two beautiful boys who keep me on my toes each day.
I don’t know where to start.
The beginning I suppose.
Dawson is finishing his Kindergarten year and I am so proud of how he’s growing and learning. He says his favorite class time is when they go to Music and sing many different songs. Of course, he also likes Gym because running and jumping are his favorite things to do. He’s beginning to read and his writing is coming along nicely, too.
Owen is 18 months old now and I can’t believe how quickly time has passed. This little boy is so smart. He understands so much of what I say to him. When I ask him to find his shoes and socks he brings them to me to put them on for him. He knows how to put his jacket on and only needs us to zip it for him. He’s not saying any words yet, but I imagine one day he’ll start speaking in sentences. My mom is super impressed with how much language he listens and responds to. She claims that he’s smarter than the average toddler because I nursed him for a full year, but I think he’s benefited from having a family of talkers who speak so many words a day. I can’t wait to hear what he has to say.
Owen is also the most mischievous baby. He loves to climb on furniture and thinks it’s funny when I freak out and take him down. I’m afraid he’s going to kill himself. He’s an active child and loves to copy everything Dawson does. It can be fun to watch them play but on the other side of the coin, Dawson gets annoyed when Owen messes up his Star Wars Lego creations. All bets are off when this happens. I’m sure this is just a phase, right?
Doug had knee surgery a month ago. He was off work for a month and let me tell you it was not a fun time. I was pretty much a single parent going to work and taking the boys to school and daycare. Add this chaos to my school schedule and I was quite the crab most of the time. He seemed to be recovering well those first two weeks, but the pain is back and he can barely walk. His doctor insists that he needs to give it more time to heal, but when you work a job on your feet 90 percent of the day, it’s hard to “rest” and heal. I can’t bear to see him in such pain. I know it’s not easy for him, but it’s difficult for us, too. When he’s grouchy because his knee and legs hurt, the kids and I feel like he’s taking it out on us. I’m not sure what to do about this. I’m thinking we need a second medical opinion.
As for me, I finally landed the job I’ve been wanting for so long. I’m working at Sentry Insurance. No more will I have to endure Joerns Healthcare (and the bitch boss from HELL). My job at Sentry is in the Premium Audit Department and I’m super excited to get back to the insurance business. It really is what I love to do. Sentry offers amazing benefits and perks and the potential for advancement is great. Plus, the boss is pretty darn cool. I am very lucky.
It’s been busy these last few months. Spring is approaching and summer is around the corner. Maybe I can bring this blog back to life.
Posted by Dana @ 10:12 AM • The Mommy Files
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April 20th, 2011 at 4:29 PM, Liz Says:
Thanks so much for writing this and for being here. I, for one, look forward to your showing off those photo skillz (hint, hint) missed you.
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